Sick in bed

Sick in bed
immobility
But did you know its all just in your head
They say you can heal anything, its just in your head
Its a matter of subtle adjustments, slow constant restructure
Could instead of should
There's a shelf of self help books
but they are left mostly unread
when reading a book requires too much energy to muster
and setting it down is easier
what does that mean?
Cold, cold, cold
bath bath bath
throw up throw up throw up
Fish oil, turmeric and vitamins,
Organic, salad, yoga class
Can't sleep cant sleep cant sleep
Cant eat, cant eat, cant eat
Such a cycle of never being well.
And you wonder if you cast this all over yourself like a sick disciplinary spell
Then you have to administer concoction after concoction to fix yourself
but nothing you swallow, and nothing you read seems to have the same power
as that sick little spell
whispered over and over in your head
on repeat
gotta find the stop button, and press it down firm
gotta get a new track in time, and put it on play
new things, new spells, that heal and create
fix and mend.